Please Forgive Me, I Forgive Myself, I Am Forgiven




Recently, in medicine ceremony this process unfolded through me and I was afforded deep, profound healing and awareness of a painful issue which has plagued me throughout my life.

We all know forgiveness is important to healing. The core of healing is often forgiveness.  We hear a lot about forgiving others:  our past partners, friends, parents and other family members. 

The deepest forgiveness work is forgiving ourselves.


Many of us have done great damage in our lifetimes  (maybe this one).  Let’s face it, if you believe in multiple lifetimes, you have to wonder where did all of those murderers, rapists, abusers, torturous prison guards, SS officers, etc etc etc end up in the next life?  If we hold that our soul is on a path of learning and discovery, we will acknowledge that some of those lifetimes we have lived (or are living concurrently as to the nature of time).  Many are walking through life in pain and disease from past life actions.

Deep Karmic healing requires our intense presence in the deepest wounds from these lifetimes.  In these lifetimes, we often allowed, called in and cultivated relationships with low frequency spirits that infiltrate our being with further pain, illness and trauma.  To root it out takes a willingness to face healing, often experienced as illness and pain full on with a compassionate heart.   We are called to go through the process of asking, then receiving our own forgiveness and to allow light to enter the places where we were not allowing it before due to our shame and subconscious self-hatred.

Without forgiving ourselves, we continue to hold hatred, shame and low frequencies in the body and being. 

There is no space for transformation without forgiveness.

Forgiveness for others is an incomplete process.

Please Forgive Me.  We often search desperately for someone to forgive us.  The light, God… We feel crushed under the burden, with the realization of our own horrors.  I have seen myself do terrible things and I have felt their implications in my life now.  This forgiveness feels external.  It has to be given the great weight and the detachment that we have from the issue.  But, we have to find this place where we completely surrender to asking for help and forgiveness.  Even if we are not exactly sure what we are asking for, we are tuning into a deeper knowing that realizes it is something that must be worked on.   

I Forgive Myself.  This one is such a challenge.  We hit against all of the reasons that we don’t deserve forgiveness, why we can’t forgive ourselves and the contracts we have made associated with the things we have done.  We must ask for help in removing these contracts from our energetic and soul signatures.

I Am Forgiven.  This is a place of deep rest and release.  We realize that we are already forgiven.  We have an unlimited amount of grace flowing toward us.  We always get another chance, a new start, but we have to ask for it and cultivate it in action.

Many of us in medicine work, healing sessions, relationships, and through other modalities are going through this process.  Sometimes it is very conscious, other times it is subtly under the surface.

When cultivated as a practice: 

Forgive me, I forgive myself, I am forgiven. 

We can open up to new possible futures without the weight of past negative actions on our soul, creating illness and pain in our bodies and following us everywhere attracting low frequency beings, people and situations.

Successful Coaches in Overwhelm

The coaching industry has exploded. This is such a good thing because it means that personal development has gone mainstream. People are realizing they need help with their marketing, businesses, love lives, sex, childhood beliefs and any other thing that might be holding them back from having an amazing life.

With people going through the awakening process, turning on gifts and realizing that living a regular life will no longer do, more and more people are finding a calling to help others.

Bringing gifts and geniuses to the masses via the internet and one on one sounds fairly simple. I know things, I put it out there, I know how to market and do sales, I get a lot of clients, followers and fans, I make a lot of money, I am happy. Yay!

But, I see a lot of coaches that are suffering. They have the business part down but hey haven’t gotten solid in every other area of life. They are now dealing with many different personalities and all of their drama, triggers and projections. They are overwhelmed, overworked and not able to hold clear and important boundaries.

Because, even if you are walking someone through a business program or a launch of a campaign you are coaching deeper levels. You are dealing with mindset, trauma and beliefs.

You must be solid, protected, guided and able to hold powerful space.

If your energy system is not fully functioning, if you are not sourcing power, receiving spiritual help, and taking your self-care to a new level you will burn out. If you have not dealt with your own childhood wounds, your own energetic blockages they will surface in your work. You will feel triggered by clients, exhausted, overwhelmed and not supported by the world. Even if you are making a ton of money the whole thing can start to make you feel dead inside, anxious or bored because you can’t take your clients to the next level because you haven’t gone there yourself.

You are here to do amazing things and serve a large number of people.

I am here to give you tools and processes to support that.

I love guiding coaches through their own processes. I teach simple practices that help to open the system, tap into deeper issues, release what is not serving and bring in massive power. I am an energy worker and work on the physical and energetic but I give you the tools to do your own work so that whatever comes up you can move through it. I help you tap into your intuition, deeper soul level gifts, move through your own traumas and get to a place where you are able to contribute in a much greater way.

Feel yucky after certain calls or a day of coaching?

Getting drained and depleted by the work that you should be uplifted by?

Are you doing YOUR most authentic work?

Not sure what your boundaries are in your professional relationships?

Are you afraid to charge for the value of your work?

Do you know that you have some stuff that you haven’t dealt with in your personal life that simply will not be cleared through a Yoga class or another marketing seminar?

Do you want to be more comfortable on camera, video and on stage?

Are you a master of your energy system? Do you want to be?

I work mostly one on one with people all over the world that are called to big things.

I also offer classes and courses to support you fully.

Become More:

Tools for:
Creating Sacred Container
Cleansing and Purification
Working with guides and other energetics
Feeling and moving energy
Opening the Channel
Healing Self and Holding Space for the Healing of Others

Let’s do this.

Dating Your Energetics

What if you could date an angel? Create a solid partnership that will serve your life and work on this planet.

When we open our channel, we can become confused. The messages and energies can be streaming in all at once, and it is hard to sort things out. Add that to a crowded room of people and we can become overwhelmed and shut down.

When you feel that you have multiple energies, guides and angels that you are connecting with and you would like more clarity to sort out their meanings and messages I encourage you to treat this process like you are dating.

Your channel might feel like you are just sleeping around all over the place. While I see nothing wrong with having Polyamorous (love with multiple beings) relationships with your energetics, and you will have a council of guides available to you throughout your life, I encourage you to spend some time with focused dedication to each one.


Decide to spend a week, a month or other period of time on a certain frequency or energy that you are feeling is coming in to you.

Build a separate altar in your space that is dedicated for this purpose.

Decorate that altar with the colors, stones and images that resonate with the being you are working with. These can be standard symbology associated with a particular angel for example but always use your guidance and intuition.

Sit with this energy on a daily basis.

Place your forehead on the ground and allow the gratitude for this being to well up in your heart.

Start a dialog with this being, always coming back to thankfulness and appreciation.

Treat it like a date. Pour two glasses of juice or tea that resonates with this energy, dress in lovely clothes in colors guided by the energy. Wear jewelry that feels connected to this frequency. Dance and allow the energy to move through you. Sing and allow the tones most loved by that energetic to flow through you. Write and allow the words to come through from this being. Draw images that you feel it would connect with. Treat it very much like a love relationships and the energy will be inspired to come more often and be more clear around its mission and purpose in your life and work.

It will give you a focused time to really feel this energetic so that you are aware in sessions or life when it is present and what that means. You won’t be distracted as much by other beings when you are focusing on this one. If there are images that resonate with this being, do a soft gaze open eye meditation in front of the image.

When your time is done, always honor the energy and tell it is is free to go but welcome to come back when needed.

At the end of the focused time, place some of your altar items in another place in the home and maintain a smaller area of honor for this being.

You have now solidified a relationship that will serve your life and work. The being will feel your gratitude, admiration and love which in turn will make the world a more joy filled, playful and loving place.

Image: RAPHAEL by Carlos Quevedo

My Awakening

My awakening has served my path of service to the world. What will your awakening uncover?

I think that I was a fairly normal child.  I was a lot more sensitive than others.  I suffered from social issues that left me overwhelmed at school as a child.  I was shy, kind, wanted to spend most of my time outdoors with my dog, and had an odd draw toward drawing ankhs (an ancient Egyptian symbol), using an ouija board to contact spirits, burying coins in the yard for luck, reading ancient mythology, learning tarot cards, skipping school to go to the cemetery to light candles and I became a vegetarian at age 9 because I felt so strongly the pain of the world and animals in particular.

When I was 15 years old, my grandmother died.  It was a traumatic event.  An uncle and aunt very loudly blamed me for her death stating that she was upset over my having started the birth control pill.  Actually, this was very far from the truth, but I wouldn’t know that for years.  My mother, being a psychotherapist, sent me to a therapist to talk things out.  I was sad and grieving in a normal way.  But, the year was 1991 and better living through chemistry was all the rage.  I was prescribed an antidepressant.  

I was never advised to go off of this medication.  And, in fact, it did seem like I had depression, anxiety and other mental health issues.  I would feel weird and not right in my head.  And they would prescribe another pill.  I started having panic attacks and I was prescribed Xanax, three pills a day in addition to two anti-depressants.  I was told that I had inherited a chemical imbalance. My mother had long suffered from depression, and doctors told me that going off of medication would be very bad for me.  I was told that I would be risking a serious mental break. The times when I would try to go off of these medications I would have such intense withdrawal symptoms that I would start to take them again right away.  

Basically, normal emotions and energies moving through my body were seen as enemies to push down instead of experience and process.

So I lived cerebrally medicated and hormonally regulated via birth control pill for almost 15 years.

Close to the end of my twenties I decided for once and for all to go off of these medications.  I thought I might want to have a baby and that seemed like a good reason, although I was told that I could, of course, take antidepressants while pregnant.  

I had just before this made a proclamation to the Universe: I want to know who I am, who I really am deeply and I want to know my reason for being on this Earth.  

I kept coming back to this request and would reflect on it often. I didn’t yet see the connection to my request to know myself and my internal shift to want to go off of these medications.

Finally, I found a psychiatrist that would work with me on taking down the meds. I went off of the birth control pill, found an amazing acupuncturist, naturopath, chiropractor and set in for a deep healing. I was prescribed mushrooms and Holy Basil, a sacred herb from India.

On the acupuncturist’s table, within about a month I fell into what I would describe as my first glimpse of meditation.  I had been going to acupuncture for years for pain but this had never happened.  I actually relaxed fully, my mind was alert and yet clear.  I felt peace.

I had tried Yoga and meditation before, but it just seemed over my head.  I couldn’t grasp the concept and it was discouraging.  But, here I was, traveling it seemed.

The come down was hard despite the support I had.  I suffered from dizziness, brain-fog, digestive problems, headaches, nausea, anxiety and more.  It was hard to tell what was real and what wasn’t.  Things seemed overwhelming and I had the sensation that I was feeling things in my life that I had never felt before.  I had always loved sex, but I started to have more intense satisfying, full body orgasms.  I started to feel joy, ecstasy and bliss for the first time.  Pain and dark depth of feeling was there too. Repressed emotions rose to the surface to be felt and processed. It was like I had been living inside of an old black and white TV and all of the sudden I was in technicolor and surround sound.  

I started listening and asking questions.

I started receiving messages.  ‘Go to the forest.  Work with plants.  Find the green.’

One day, I was invited to go to a huge field of flowers.  This was a large art project near downtown Los Angeles.  My boyfriend told me, “Take off your shoes.”  I grew up in Texas, where there are stickers and stinging insects everywhere. You did not go without shoes.

I had spent my 20s living in New York and Los Angeles.  I could not tell you when the last time I had my shoes off on the Earth was.

All of the sudden, a huge rush of energy came up through my feet.  I was literally knocked to the ground.  I felt and knew the energy of the Earth.  She was powerful and it created a depth of emotion that I had never felt before.  I spent the rest of the day curled in a ball in a laundry basket on the floor of my closet.  Something important had happened to me and I wasn’t sure what.  I knew that I needed to help heal something and to know and love the mother.

We went to a fairy-land place in a deep forest of Oregon.  And, it was as if I could see the fairy folk dancing all around me.  And I heard, very clear, “You are a Healer.”
What?  What does that mean?  I was actually quite broken in my body, I had no knowledge of healing, and no context to what this could mean.

So, I started guessing.  I knew I was supposed to work with plants. Maybe I was an herbalist.  I started studying.  I began more gardening projects and learned organic gardening and Permaculture. I started working with plants.  I was drawn to Spagyrics (an herbal medicine produced by alchemical procedures. These procedures involve fermentation, distillation and the extraction of mineral components from the ash of the plant.) after experiencing them at a festival and took an Alchemy course which would change my life.  In it, I was introduced to invoking trance states through plant meditations and drumming. I learned how to work with the elementals and did deep personal study of Kabbalah and ancient texts of transformation.

Luckily, I had the luxury of having time alone and not needing to work.  I am not sure what I would have done or if I could have done this at all without the support of my partner at the time and I will forever be grateful to him.

When I decided that I should meditate, I started to sit.  But, within a few minutes of sitting, my body would start to be racked with energy.  All of the sudden I would be shaking, making crazy sounds, flailing about and frankly scaring the shit out of myself.  It was ugly, horrible stuff.  I would scream and yell, contort and cry and all the while this intense energy was thrusting through me.  Sometimes I would be breathing heavily, sometimes I would stop altogether until I remembered that I must breathe to live.  Sometimes I shook so hard I thought I would knock my teeth out of my head.  I burned through with heat that drenched me in sweat for hours.

I didn’t tell people.

I spent a lot of time in the tub.  I would just make sound and cry for hours.

Then the visions started.  I would have remembrances of times that were not now and places that were not here.  And they were real.  And they sometimes opened up huge areas of grief, rage and shame.  I started to navigate these waters with movement and sound.

I began to have a very hard time going out in public.  Crowds were intense, music seemed louder and more jarring and the trees, animals, and elements were speaking to me.

I remember going out to eat once and it started to rain (odd in LA).  I couldn’t help but start this activation which was from the information that was coming into my hands from the water.  I had to make certain tones and movements; I had to go to the water.  

I started to channel.  This process was uncomfortable and intense. At first, it was a rush of energy running through me pushing at all of my blockages. The words were broken and jarring. I sputtered, stuttered and hit up against my own doubts and fears. Words flowed through that were not of this world. They were of another time and place and they were also of me and the pure essence of my being.

I had never even seen such a thing in real life.  I thought that to channel you had to pass out and then something took you over.  I had really only known a small amount about it from reading Edgar Cayce. That wasn’t what was happening to me.  It was like I was in there, same as always, only there was another energy in there too. My consciousness felt shifted to the back of my brain.  I still feel it mostly like this as though I am moving to the back right hand corner of my mind space.  I was a channel to a group of star people.  I was told information about the impending rising waters of the earth and what it would be like.  

I was told that I was key in bringing in and being a container for a raising of vibratory frequency.  That the people of the light would gather together and form a beacon to the others that seek to help us.

I was told that I was supposed to be channeling in front of groups of people.  Which basically scared the shit out of me.

I didn’t know what to think except that maybe I really was crazy.  I started reading more about channelings that others have brought through and thought those sounded a bit crazy as well.  But, I could not help but feel like this was something that I was supposed to be doing and kept coming back to it.

There were times when a being would enter my body and its vibration was so foreign, so large that I could hardly contain it and it was like being plugged into a light socket and not being able to let go.

At times, it seemed that they likened it to a novelty.  To be inside a human form in that way was unique and fun.

They started to pop in at different and uncalled for times, like when I was driving on a freeway in Los Angeles.

At that time I started to say no.  I had no idea that saying no was my right before this.

I learned to state that I was a sovereign being. I had to be clear and precise with what I would allow to happen inside of my body and what I wouldn’t allow.

I was overwhelmed and felt at the whim of this energetic work that was happening through me.

I went to see a doctor.  Yes, an MD, but one that I thought could understand me and what I was going through.  She was raised as the granddaughter of the healer woman from a village in India.  She read palms and taught at a center for esoteric studies.

I went into trance state.  She spoke with the primary being I was channeling.  And, I am sure a few other things that I can’t remember.  

Afterward, she told me, “You are a Shaman.  The problem is that you live in normal society.  In a tribal culture, you would have been picked out early on as a child, sent to live with the Shaman, nurtured and trained and then you would have lived outside of the village.  Your time would be spent working with plants and the spirits.  You would have no other job.  People would bring you food and things that they made in return for the healing that you would do.  But, now you have to be in this society, have a job, fight traffic, navigate reality which is not what you were brought here to do.”

Throughout this time I kept asking for help.  I was fortunate to come across the path of a master teacher, Mayaya who took me under her wing and taught me the vital processes of grounding, releasing, balancing, and activating.  These practices became the cornerstone of my process through this time and beyond.  Without these tools I would have risked damaging my energetic system perhaps permanently.

I reached out and started studying with other teachers and guides of meditation, Yoga and other healing modalities both structural and energetic.  Because I had injured my back in my early 20s I deeply studied anatomy and physiology and body work. Through this I started to discover the energetic and emotional correspondences that were being expressed in people’s bodies.  

The awakenings kept happening.  The blockages were cleared over time.  My voice opened and I found one of my most sacred healing tools.

This awakening, in the eyes of most people would seem like madness.  There would seem to be no cure for such a disorder that would cause extreme shaking and trembling, speaking in tongues, inability to control the body, heavy sweats, screaming and crying.

This could only be madness of the most profound state that would have to require hospitalization, medication, exorcism, hysterectomy or lobotomy.

But, this was my path to full and total liberation of my being becoming fully actualized as a master healer and mystic.

As a healer, I believe that we must fight our way through blocks that keep us from being actualized.  This creates a powerful portal that propels us to our destiny.

People go through this in different ways.  Often a near death experience or serious illness are the initiatory experiences that bring us in contact with the spiritual forces at work in our lives.  Others receive their initiation through drugs, sex or spiritual practices.

We are offered a way to wake up and join the forces of light and to do the work we are brought here to do.

In this process, there is a need to clear and heal all aspects of our being.  We must address the past lives in which we were tortured and burned in order to pull through the information for that life.

We must heal the blocks from our upbringing that says we should remain small, not tell people what we see, hear or know.  We begin to integrate all parts of ourselves.  Then we can form relationships with other beings of light and the natural world to support us on our journey.

And, so my path so clearly laid out before me is one of being the bridge for the others.  People come to me when they start to awaken to their energy and potential.  They bring their fears and shame.  They wonder at their sanity and their place in the world.  

And, because I have had such a strong experience.  Because it was so intense and powerful for me to go through this time, I am able to relate and offer support.

I am constantly pushing myself to learn more, experience more, open more and confront the shadows that keep me held back as I do for all of my people who come to me for help.

I believe that simple practices and awareness can make this process much easier and that the healing that works through my body and field is my service to this world.

It has not been an easy path.  It is not one that I chose but one that chose me.

And, I would not have it any other way.

Excerpt from Awaken, Heal, Evolve: The Modern Mystics Guide to the Awakening

You Own a Well

You are the owner of a well. 

You have been digging this well for years.  You have put in hard labor.  You have studied with great well masters so that it is strong and deep.

The land is dry and barren.  Water is scarce.  A woman with no water on her land finds out that  you have a well.  She travels through the heat to your land seeking that which will sustain her life.  You share the water because it is the only thing you can do.  You reach deep inside of the well and pull forth the life nourishing liquid.

The woman thanks you and goes away.

You worry if the water might make her sick.  Maybe you didn’t pull from deep enough or filter out enough of the sediment.

You worry that she will tell others.

You worry that you might not have enough in your well if many people know that you have this gift.

You worry that others will look at you differently if you are the well owner.  They might not love you and you might be separate.

Slowly they start to appear.  At first there is one or two at a time.  Soon there are entire families.  They set up camps to cook and sleep because yours is the closest water for so many miles.  A community starts to develop.

At this point, you have a decision to make.

Do you close the well to save the precious juice for yourself?  Do you send the thirsty people away knowing they might not find water elsewhere?

Do you deny that you own the well so that you are not responsible for all of these people?

Do you pretend that you do not have this water because you do not want to be celebrated?  After all this might create ego.

Who are you to own a well?

Who are you to supply life to those that are thirsting?

Are you willing to take on this responsibility?  The one handed to you by the great Mother who has given you this gift.

Will you reach deep inside to bring forth life for the others?

The land is parched.  The people thirst.

You own the well.  Own it well.

A Letter to Heal the Mother Wound

When I was first handed this assignment, I folded it up into a small square and hid it in my purse for several months. At the time, I was working really hard with my clients, had a shitty boundary system with them and was in a lot of physical pain and discomfort. I didn’t really want to deal with some of my anger at my mother, but it kept surfacing in the tears that sprung up on a regular basis. I was resentful and just couldn’t seem to let it go and our relationship was really suffering.

Every so often I would take the paper out of my purse, unfold it, read my notes on the letter I was going to write and then fold it back up and put it away.

Finally, one day I was ready. I realized that there was no way that I could continue to hold negative feelings toward someone that I still shared cells with. I was poisoning myself and the relationship was so hard to maintain. She could feel that something was wrong, she knew that I was mad at her, but I couldn’t let it out. I wasn’t being honest with either one of us.

I offer you this exercise as one to help clear the old wounds that might be plaguing your relationship. Of course, this can be done with any strained relationship in which old issues are driving things and is especially helpful for forgiving those that have passed.

Write a letter to your mother (or anyone else) in which you allow yourself to go into all of the places where she hurt you and did not show up for you. Get it all out there. This could take a while and will be painful. You might want to take some time off from talking with mom so that the pain that is surfacing and the words from the page don’t make it out to her. There is usually little reason to go into these things with a parent. They often can not hear or hold space for these things. It would simply be too painful to look at and not in the highest service.

Do NOT send this letter!

Speak these words to the Earth. Go out into nature where it is OK to break down and sob and say these words. Say them to the Earth. Let her hold your pain and tears.

When this feels settled, write another letter. This one from your mother.

When you sit down, ask to be connected to your mother’s higher self. Ask that you be able to write from her higher self to respond to your letter.

From her higher self, you can receive what you need. Go through each point and let her really hear you, acknowledge you as you would like to be acknowledged, let her say that she is sorry.

“I know that I let you down. I know that was not a loving way to be. I see that I hurt you. I am sorry. I was doing the best that I knew how at the time. Know that I love you.”

Let this really sink into your being. Read the words to your inner child and let her feel their truth from the higher nature of your mother.

You might want to write more letters to her or to others to complete this healing process.

The letter that you eventually write might be one of forgiveness, appreciation and love. This could be the one that you actually do send to your mom.

A ceremonial burning of these letters can also help to clear the energy and to create a new internal relationship for you.

As you heal and expand in consciousness, know that there will be wounds to heal and relationship dynamics to deal with. These can cause shutting down of areas and energy centers of the body and even create pain and illness. When you commit to doing your internal healing work, without requiring others to fulfill your need for healing, you can achieve remarkable peace.

I have noticed that my relationship with my mother greatly improved from this process.

We are close and talk often and I am able to have boundaries that I never had before in the relationship. I am taking responsibility for my experience within it and not holding old wounds up for viewing at every turn.

When we see the pains in our bodies and hearts as opportunities for growth instead of something to hide from, we allow a deep healing to occur and our true nature of love to emerge.

Cord Cutting

How cutting energetic cords is the missing piece to ending a relationship with more ease.

Drawn into his web again, I wonder, what am I doing here?

I know that this relationship is not good for me.  I know that this is going nowhere, yet I feel almost compelled to be in his field again. What we have is powerful.  Tearing it apart is so painful.

We fight.  I cry.  I leave.  I come back.  Why?

Why do we choose to be in a dis-functional relationship for far too long?  Why would we hold onto a relationship when we know we need to end it?

This has happened before, but we haven’t learned the lesson yet.  Maybe we have just forgotten how entangling relationships are and that we have intermingled our energy cords.

We are energy.  The energetic tendrils of our systems intertwine like vines through our bodies, our hearts and even our spirits.

It is as though we are sharing cells with each other. Therefore, we are much more interconnected than we would like to think.

When we love someone deeply or have a long term relationship with someone (even if love is not the reason we are connected), we are as energetically invested in them as they are in us.

You can feel this when you break off a relationship.  The connection is so strong; the pattern of being with that person so familiar, that it often feels as though there is a hole in your heart or a part of your body is missing.

Even though you know that the relationship is not working, you are in a lot of pain: emotional, physical, spiritual.

We often try to reconnect through sex or late night phone calls, but this only delays the  inevitable acceptance that it’s time to “cut the cord.”

They say that time is the best medicine for healing all wounds but there are energy practices that can be done to help assist the process.

Psychics and seers often report the ability to see cords embedded in people’s bodies.  Sometimes these cords appear to be draining energy.  So cutting cords is an important self-care practice in general and especially important while transitioning out of an entangled, poorly functioning relationship.

There are many ways to assist in cutting these cords. I am offering suggestions, but this is your unique practice. I encourage you to experiment and see what feels right for you.

To begin: call for spiritual help, your most supportive energies.  .

This might be God, Goddess, Jesus, angels, a saint, a spirit guide, Gaia or simply the light of the Universe.

“I call on my guides, angels and Archangels to assist me in cutting the cords that are no longer serving me.  I ask that those that serve my highest and best help me to be whole and clear.”

Close your eyes.  Spend some time feeling your breath enter and exit your body and let your mind calm.

Vision your body in your mind’s eye.  Scan your body to see if you can tune into any places that feel like a cord or rope is connected to the physical or energy bodies.  The auric field is a multi-layered bubble encompassing the body and it is affected by these energetic cords.  You might experience areas of darkness, or just a place that calls your attention.

Don’t worry if this doesn’t happen for you.  It isn’t important to see things.  Even if you have no internal experience of this it is still working.  Noticing subtle energies is a skill developed over time.

Use your imagination.  This is the beginning of the path.  The imagination is actually far more connected to reality than you might think.

“I cut the cords attached to (name of the person you are cutting from).  I release and let go of this attachment with love.”

“I allow any energies from this person to be released back to their higher self.”

This allows their higher self to do the work instead of the actual person who is probably in pain as well.  This is especially important when dealing with abusive or obsessive relationships.

You can do this same work with any person, place or thing such as a city you feel was toxic for you, a bar that you no longer want to spend your Friday nights at or the evil of the day, sugar.

As you visualize the cord severing, you can bring your hands up, fingers together and slowly run them all around your body.  It is as if your hands were knives cutting all cords from you.

As you visualize the cords leaving you, send love and compassion to that person from your heart and your higher self.

Even if you are cutting cords from someone that you are angry with or do not like, even if that person has abused or damaged you, realize that love is abundant and free and it is better to do spiritual energetic work with as much love, forgiveness and compassion as possible.  It is as much for you as for them.  If you aren’t there yet, let yourself at least feel compassion and love for yourself.

Don’t worry that you might cut cords with people you want to be connected with and damage the relationship.  The help you are asking for is much wiser than that.

If you are in process of ending a relationship, you are probably in pain.  At this point add in whatever prayers, intentions or requests that you have.

“May my heart be healed”. “May I learn the lessons from this relationship with grace and ease”.  “May I receive the healing that I need in this moment”.

You can place your hands on your heart or your body and imagine light pouring from your hands into your body.

You can use your hands again to move around your body to patch up your auric field and make it whole and strong.  Use your imagination.

If you find a place where you sensed the release of the cord, spend some extra time in this area visualizing light filling this space of your body and the auric field.  You can imagine yourself in a bubble of light and fill that bubble with a healing color such as pink or gold.

This is actually quite important!  Not doing this can leave you feeling worse, as you are emptying something and you must refill it with something else.  Nature abhors a vacuum and you must always refill with light and love when you release something from your body or field.

At the end, thank your helper spirits or energies.

“Thank you for your assistance.  I release you.”

This brings closure to the space.

You can do this practice daily until you start to feel lighter and less attached and then repeat it as you feel the need.

This can be done as part of a morning practice, in bed at night before you go to sleep or at any time of the day.

If you don’t have much time to do all of this a quick, “I cut all cords and energetic attachments that are not serving my highest and best” works wonders.

Ceremonial cord cutting with your ex.

It is possible to do this same work with your ex.

This can be more of a ceremonial work.  Some people even invite friends to witness the ceremony especially in cases of a long term relationships or marriage.

You might want to bring a symbol of your relationship to the ceremony that you can burn or bury.  This could be something you got on a trip together, letters or whatever feels right for you.

Allow yourselves some time and space.  Sit across from each other.  Look into each other’s eyes.  Allow yourself to speak or read something to your ex that really comes from your heart.

Acknowledge them, the love you have shared and your hopes for them in the future.

Be real and present and let your heart do the talking.

Encourage each other to cry. These are tears of grief and the passing of something important, instead of blame.  

“I let you go and release the cords that we have created.  I wish you love and all the best for your life.  I am grateful for all that we have experienced together.”  

This is an honoring and a severing.

In this, there is a creation of space.  The finalization becomes more clear and there is a sense of relief and closure.

Letting go of someone that we love is not easy.  Too often we stay in relationships when we know they are no longer serving our evolution and growth.  It is a brave thing to pull away from a loved one as both are likely to feel pain which can be quite intense.

In pulling away, we must acknowledge the energetic as well as the emotional, spiritual,  and physical realities of this contract that was created between two people.

I hope that these practices are of service to your journey to find a wholeness of heart again and to allow the space for love to reenter your life when it is time.


The Practice is Not the Point


In some ways it is hard for me to put this out there. I teach practice. I believe in practice.  I love to learn new practices, and I am really enthralled by the different methods that we use to get to Source or to heal ourselves.

I utilize specific ritual techniques in ceremony and life that I am called to and find useful. Some of these I have learned. Some have sprung from my soul fully formed to my surprise. Many seem to be brought to my door by Spirit with a gentle rustle of the breeze.

The practices that I have learned are powerful. The ceremonies I have attended have been profound. The traditions that flow around this world are in need of exploration and discovery.

And yet, the practice is not the end result. It is a way that is utilized to clear the mind, expand the consciousness and develop resiliency in this mad world. It trains the body for the intensity of light energy flowing undisturbed. It burns away the clogged gunk of our lives.

In our strange human mind we are obsessed with latching onto dogma, process and systems.

Often, I find that many people have trouble participating in any sort of ritual or practice on a regular basis because it isn’t perfect.

Not the right time of day, the right moon phase, the right candle or crystal available, the proper yoga gear, the time to sit for an hour.

We use these excuses to beat ourselves up and to stop ourselves from doing anything.

For myself, my practice is in a state of flow. Basically anything can happen. I am called by Spirit.

I use the tools I have with a heavy dose of inspiration and presence.

What does my body need in this moment?

What is my soul trying to tell me?

What feels good now?

What is most present for me in this moment?

Where is my breath?

And in that exploration I find magic and I heal myself and connect to Spirit in deep and profound ways.

Yes, have a practice. Devote yourself to it. Dive as deep as possible. Ingrain it so much in your body that there is no thought to it happening. It just is. Let it take on a life of its own inside of you and become a part of who you are. And then let it go. See what happens then.

To tell the truth, when I had no practices, when I was purely being led by Spirit, I had amazing healing and shifts. When I had no idea what I was doing but simply surrendered into the moment I did amazing things with my body and soul.

I had to give time and space to be deeply present with myself for this to happen, of course.

From there, I had questions. I was unsure of myself. I had to know more to put words and reasons onto my experiences. I had to become an expert so that others would take me seriously.

I experienced things that were beyond my comprehension and I needed to know more.

And, in that search, I have seen innumerable other seekers. People traveling from workshop to workshop, learning practices, asking for healing, trying to figure it out. Being both served and constricted by practices and procedures.

Practice gives you a starting point. It gives focus. It gives discipline. It works. But, it is unique what works for you. Your system, while served by the traditional practices as all human forms are served by the concepts of grounding, cultivation, storage and flowing of energy, is also unique and served by certain things more than others at certain times.

There are times in your life when running full tilt into the forest is the only way to go. There are times when what you most need is to sit quietly and breathe into your belly. Sometimes strength is needed; sometimes flexibility. Sometimes fire; sometimes water.

Allow that the practice is not the point, but the process of developing such fine listening to your system that you can hear and feel the answers to your questions and the needs of your body at every moment is of vital importance.

This is divine inspiration moving through you. And much more the point.

You of The Sensitive Soul


You of the sensitive soul know that you are needed.

You have worn your empathy as a wound and yet it is your sword.

You are here to feel.

You are here to wake us up to the fact that we are intuitive animals.

You are here to express the beauty of our connected nature to the Divine.

Please do not hide.

Please do not shrink away from the places that are uncomfortable.

Please do not be afraid that we will see your tears.

For your tears are jewels refracting the depths of your soul.

You of the sensitive soul, your time is now.

You are called out to the field of battle to hold space for all of our transformation.

Tell us what you feel.

Tell us what you see.

Tell us what is right and in full alignment.

Hold your ground.

Learn your protection.

But, be ready to open fully to pull through the healing we all need.

You of the sensitive soul,



Know that you are needed.

Your Family and Friends as You Become Conscious

Know that not all people will appreciate you.  

Know that not everyone will understand you.  

Know that you will disturb others by shining your light and being a part of the evolution of man.

There are those that are afraid of this evolution.  There are those that will disparage you.  Do not allow yourself to be pulled down by these people.  

Offer your wisdom and healing yet know you will not always be met with appreciation.  Find those that do understand and see you. Surround yourself with these people to lift you up so that you may do your work.  Do not waste your time with those that attack you. They are not ready to hear the truth.


So often as we open ourselves to our awakening we are met with great resistance from those around us.  It is natural to want to offer these new perspectives and knowings to your friends and family.  You have found out something very valuable.  You have been given a glimpse of an awakened life.  In this you feel the seed of consciousness, peace, even bliss, ecstasy and love.

But, for many people, the status quo and living a life that fits into a box keeps them safe and held in place is of vital importance.  Your new found consciousness does not fit into their lives.

As you may have discovered, when you open to this consciousness, all aspects of your life begin to shift and change.  You must start looking at all parts of yourself.  Your shadow, your relationships, your career, your physical activity and even what you eat are all called into question.  They are all brought to the surface to see if they are in alignment with your new way of being.  This new consciousness.

Many people feel angry, threatened and resistant to this kind of change.

You can not force anyone to evolve.  You can not force your new ideas or beliefs on anyone even if you see how much they are suffering in their current situation.

You might be subjected to great pain as you try to convince people to see things your way.  But, your sight is altered.  You are seeking. They are not.

So, while it may be effective to talk about your experiences.  It also may not.  Friendships will end.  Family ties will feel strained at first. This is part of the process.  

Many times old friends and family will express great concern, worry and fear that you are adopting new beliefs and activities.  It is outside of their realm of knowledge up to this point so it is threatening on many levels.  

Know that if you can show up in your truth without trying to convince anyone else of their path then you will have the greatest effect. There is little else you can do.

At times you might feel like you are losing everything.  You might be mocked or ridiculed.

Know also that you must look ever more deeply at yourself.  As you expand into your awakening you must deal with the aspects of your upbringing and family that you are still resentful over, triggered by and unable to forgive.  The more that you can do this work the less you will need to flaunt your new found consciousness and the more it becomes a simple easeful way of being.

This will radiate from you and those that are ready to alight will be caught by your flame.

Be patient.  Be kind.  With yourself and those that you have been raised with.  As time goes by they will accept you more and more as they will feel a shift in your energy.  You will feel more grounded, more present and loving.  They will begin to trust your way of being. And some will even explore and adopt some aspects of your knowledge.

Or hopefully, at the least, accept it.

But, this isn’t for them is it?  This is your path.  Your journey.  Live it fully and know that you are loved.  You are seen.